Three question in one post. (Part one— amplified)

(If you stumbled into this blog post as a search hit and still wanna stick around for a real version of the cuck life….you might wanna start here:

https://thesuburbandomme.com/2014/02/10/three-question-in-one-post-part-one/

*Did he see this coming?

I keep looking at that one question and thinking:

Short answer:

No—-because he couldn’t (wouldn’t) see past the end of his dick and all the horny juice chemicals rushing thru his system anytime he started obsessing on this kink.

Long answer:

So many things about the way he perceived the “how” of this…… made me question his grasp on reality, at times….well all the time…when it came to how he really thought this would play out once the whole fantasy took on a real life form.  He elected to NOT see anything like this developing because it didn’t fit into the fantasy spectrum he had. In his mind all this would play out more along the lines of “hot wifery”. He would have a hand in picking the bull…and he would be involved in pretty much every step…and when HE was bored with the chosen bull….that bull would just go away and we (he)would go to work looking for the next one. The search itself……. in his fantasy…… was rather intricate and extravagant, in fact that was the larger part of the fantasy ——the actual sexual encounter—– was probably only 25% of the whole fantasy playing out.  And then the follow-up would be us re-experiencing the event in our own one-on-one sex life with him asking questions and me giving blow by blow exacting details of how and what turned me on.

THAT was how HIS fantasy version played out.

In the fantasy version……he blew off every single thing he knew about me as a person and as his wife.  He knew that my own ability to be aroused was directly connected to the emotional connect I had to the person I was aroused by.

He totally ignored what he knew about my own base sexual nature and hard wiring. Not a big deal if it is just for the enhancement of his own fantasies…..and human nature and for the most part as long as the one doing the fantasizing can keep THAT in perspective…no harm no foul. It became a problem because he lost touch with the reality of who I am when he tried to get this all translated into the very real reality he lives in with me.

In order to be aroused enough to have sex with any man………it meant they had everything I NEED to feel something beyond my crotch. I process my emotions in my brain…not my crotch……and I tend to be very calculating in the thought process.  Sex for me is part of being alive…it isn’t the reason I live. On my top ten things to be doing…sex comes in at about three or four….maybe even as low as 10…if stress is turning my world upside down. I don’t thrive on the need to be aroused. I don’t go looking for things to get me aroused…..I don’t need to be constantly aroused.

The core base of my nature

…..the way it is programmed……..

I am not programmed to look for ways to get or stay aroused.

It happens out of nowhere……and I find if I try to force myself to be aroused…it is a lost cause. If a man strikes my “yum chord”….then I start looking for other attributes that appeal to me beyond the sexual parts of the impending hook up More often than not…once the surface is scratched….I lose interest quick in whatever it was that started the “yum” horny thing rolling…because of this ~MY~ base nature…….

I’m never going to be any good at hook ups.

THE END. 

In order for my own “me so horny” hard wiring to work with me…not against me…..certain parameters have to be in place and those parameters ( thus the scratching the surface and losing interest)  are going to set up a possible connection to the person I am aroused by that will lead to more than just a sexual fling.

For this to happen…..

It meant the person who aroused me enough to follow thru on the biological urge,

That person I followed thru with…..

They shared the very same characteristics that attracted me to him.

So there was the

“hard to miss it….. unless you have your head up your ass”

potential for any  man I chose to bed……

to become an integral functioning day in and day out part of MY life

And in turn…..

his.

He was well aware of all this as he pushed me in the direction of the “cucking lifestyle”. He can say he didn’t see it coming but to do that means he would be admitting he didn’t know the woman–his life partner– he was pushing that direction.

Considering it took me 28 years to follow thru and pull another man into out life………….well:

This is why I say he

ELECTED

—made an absolute cognizant choice—

to not see something like this coming.

I still look at that thought process and wonder just how far one can get one’s head up one’s ass without suffocating.

This is proof the head can be shoved pretty far up the ass and the brain inside the head can and will still function without fresh air.

Good gawd what a wall of words.

Maybe I should have stuck with the short answer.

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I need to clarify something in this amplification and rather then just go back in an edit……here it is  with the edit…….because I want it to stand out:

And then the follow-up would be us HIM……re-experiencing the event in our own one-on-one sex life with him asking questions and me giving blow by blow exacting details of how and what turned me on.